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I think it has to be something with similar mind set. I always enjoy movies more when i am working on a movie. I watch them more, i pay closer attention, and i enjoy them more. I have been watching a ton of movies lately. I have watched at least one movie a day. It is cool.

Fridays are always harder to work on. I mean something just starts to shut down your brain. It sucks because i am right at the end of a project. If i could just finish it i would be able to start all new stuff monday. Also inevitably monday i wont remember crap about the project so it will take even longer to finish. Ahhhh so i am going to work on it as hard as I can for the next 2 hours. I will fight my brain and it's wondering thoughts and it's eagernes to leave.

hey there is a new version of wastedbrains up and running now. Go check it out and make some comments. I think this should be pretty cool because it will add alot to the site besides just the massive amount of content that is already there. We will also keep adding new content when ever we finish up new projects and such. I have quite a bit of content on the way that will be added pretty soon.

P.S. if you see the old version of the page that means your nameservers haven't updated yet they will go to the new page within 24 hours.

Wow, i have reached a important time in every boys life. I shaved with a real razor for the first time today. Dominic showed me how. I cut myself. It didn't hurt as bad as expected. I guess this will slowly become a new part of my life as i slowly devlop into a man. What is next i will start liking beer? Will i begin to watch sports on TV. What about liking only big breasted women. There is all sorts of scary things in my future but at the tender age of 21 i decided it was time i took the first step into the journey of manhood.

well i mean it is scary to run out off the locals. everyone has plans everyone is busy. It is great to know that no matter how late no mater how wierd somone is there for you. That is why you call around sometimes. So now i feel more secure.

Apparently there are alot of night owls on the net. I made a post last night really late (especially since all my times are off when i post) and then a ton of people came and visited the site. That is kinda cool. I guess i will make alot of midnight and 1 in the morning posts. hehe

Anyways i am having another one of those relapses where you really want the past. You even thing about trying to make everything like it was before. It can't be how it was, it never will be how it was. God i wish it could be how it was. Well then you say i guess i need to work with my future not my past. There is nothing for me to do with my future right now. Except work, sleep, and mess around on my computer. A crappy time where you just feel like giving up hope again. well I am giving up i guess. It is ok though becuase that will last about 3 days and then something will motovate me. Then the cycle will begin again. The circle will remain.

I guess i haven't post anything really for awhile. Just little blur here and there. Mostly about how i am busy with my movie and how it is coming along. Does that mean i have nothing to say. No of course not i always have something to say. I probably say the things that come into my head way to often to be honest. I am almost positive more girls that know me would agree.

A good friend that i hadn't talked to for along time called me tonight. It was nice to hear from her. It was wierd though because it was like we were both glazing over everything to make things seem better than they are. I know through another friend she is upset about something, but she didn't ever bring it up. Neither did I. I talked to her and told her thing that were going on in my life, but avoided anything remotely bad. I wonder why someone i am so honest with in the past is someone for now i think i had to hide from. I had no reason to believe taht anything i told her would be a problem. It wouldn't change anything between us. It was just odd. It makes me wonder how often everyone is really honest with each other.

At the grocery store the check out person will ask how your are. 9 out of 10, I'm good. I'm fine. Okay. I get in those moods occasionally where i take the question as if it was real. I answer. "I'm amazing i am so excited about such and such." "I'm not well, i am really angry about this." I wonder if everyone was actually honest and said what they were thinking how the world would work. Would it be better? Worse? Just different?

I was talking with dominic about a sign we saw recently at a steak house. It said "Please only park vehicles on the pavement." Now we were discussing how the sign should just get to the point and say, "Hillbillies please stop driving your trucks around in the grass." I think if signs and rules were actually put bluntly alot of signs would have bullet holes in them and rednecks would have even more of a reason to collect street signs.

Well until something is different enjoy the fact that you will still see items that have warning lables that say, "For indoor or outdoor use only."

Well i just finally watched a american classic. It has truely been inspiration to all the sex comedies that have come after you. I was amused at how raunchy some of the jokes were. I thought it would be pretty tame compared to american pie, but it was pretty bad also. It makes me wish the cops would buddy up with me and my roommates. hehe and then we could screw the university. hehe

Well i got on fark, which was cool. The only down side is that i sent them the image and wanted it put up at the end of last much to use up the extra bandwidth i had. since it is a new month this is new bandwidth. So they have knocked 1 GB out of my monthly 5 GB in 1 day. Argg i guess that will teach me to put dumb things on fark. hehe. Actually i will never learn. I just decided i will for now on leave images on CU servers and let it take a bashing. hehe. We will see if i can host my whole movie on CU servers also. the school isn't going to like me for this anyways check out all the funny pictures of me on fark.

Me on fark

Oddly enough i got another call. This time from a different friend. One i hadn't heard from for even longer. One i didnt really expect to hear from again. So now what? Well now i am more confused than ever and i feel as if my entire body has switched into over exhausted mode. Left is really right and right is up. I am spirallying into a tiny box where none of the answers exist and only more questions remain. If it could just be as easy as my dreams. If it could just work out like it does in my head. Can you learn from the past, or are we just who we are. If so why is it I know so much about who I am, until the time comes to make any real kind of decision.

Party people have got to be the dumbest bunch of people in the world. I mean seriously. We had a party at our house last night. woohooo fun fun. A bunch of people were dancing. Then some girl decided she had to know what this light swtich on the wall does. Mind you this switch has been taped over in the on position for about 11 months. She peels the tape off and flips the switch. Of course we had tape dit up for a reason, it turns off all the power to the outlets in the living room. So she has all the lights, fans, stero, mp3 server, and more just stop. She realizes that she is dumber than a brick and turns the switch back on and runs away. At that point i reboot the computer turn everything back on and then the hard drive with all the mp3's is just gone. The computer can't find it. If she killed 100 gbs of my stuff to settle he cow like curiousity of the taped switch she will be beheaded in front of a live studio audience. Argg people are dumb. So very very dumb. We had to listen to radio the rest of the night.

I had the test screening of my movie last night. It went over well. People generally seemed to like it. There was a couple complaints that i will be fixing. The opening credits all the names go by to quickly and can't be read. There is still a couple spots where it is hard to hear what Ben is saying. Lastly two fo the songs just get to loud compared to the over all volume of the rest of the time. I will probably fix these problems tonight. Then with no other new problems coming up i guess i will call it a done film. Wow how cool will that be. I will be done with a movie. A movie that i have been working on for over a year.

It is wierd to watch it because to me everything seems so slow and dull and it is because i have seen every one of the scenes a couple hundred times. I talked to people and asked if any parts felt slow and they said no. They said they really liked when dream sequences would start because they wanted to see what he would dream next. I think that is cool. So i guess i am a small success.

tossing and turning through out the night as my mind wanders and ponders things that are out of sight. I may never find what i seek, but at least tomorrow is the end of this week.

Arggg i am having an attack of random can't sleep disorder. It is 3 in the morning. I am wide awake i have layed in bed wide awake for the past hour. So now i am drinking water and writting in my blog. I am writting to tell everyone about the huge ass hail storm that hit today. Seriously they were the size of golfballs. They probably dented cars. The whole house sounded like it was taking heavy gunfire. I decided the sounds would make a nice effect to play the Matrix videogame which also involves heave gunfire. So i played the matrix game for about 2 1/2 hours and completely lost track of time. Then I went to a friends house warming party and I was the DD for the night. It was fun and good to see her new place. Anyways now i am going to attack my sleeping problem head on by laying in bed again until morning. Who betters i fall asleep before four?

Well I am tired as all hell today. I didn't sleep to well last night. Namely due to an attack of my allergies. Stupid being allergic to mold. The worst part is i don't know where it came from so i have to clean like a mad man today. My hold room is going in the washing machine. That is right carpet and all... hehe Today at work i showed my movie to my boss and some of the other employies they were all very impressed. I am glad that everyone i have shown it to has seemed to enjoy it. I started building the web page so hopefully that means it will be online and ready to download before I go to vegas. Which is only a week away. Vegas baby VEGAS! hehe sorry to much swingers in me. Well it feels good to be wrapping up a project that i have been working on for a long time now.

School is approaching rapidly and kinda scarily. I don't know how much time i will be able to work during the school year this year. I really don't want to work but i need the money. I have been eating out, and buying to much stuff. Money just seems to have been disappearing recently. Hopefully that trend wil not continue. Anyways i am going to try to live cheaply the rest of this month except while in vegas. anyways that is all for now.

Sometimes waiting is the hardest thing. Waiting for something you dread. Waiting for something your excited about. Waiting for something to finish or start. Since i have been finishing up my movie i had alot of really long render times i have had to wait through. All the waiting has become really annoying. I mean video demands the most out of a CPU leaving me with very little computing power to do anything. Perhaps one web browser can browse around online that is about it. Yes perhaps i should get away from my computer and do something else, but what. I was social and partied alot this weekend. I am tired and just want to relax a bit for now. I could watch a movie, but to get anything worth seeing i would have to go out and rent something. So for now i sit here and type away.

I guess now that i finished my movie i have a dull feeling. It was like i was building up to something. Something big and then when i finished there wasn't really anything new. It is like what should i do now. I just haven't wanted to start something else new and big. I am kinda sick of everything having to do with movies. Even watching them. So i can't just watch movies. I am sick of partying right now i have been doing that a whole lot this summer. This leaves me coming home from work with little to do. I dont watch movies, i dont work on making one, i dont want to drink and party, no one is really around the house, I dont want to go out and spend money. So hmmm now what. I could go back to working on some coding projects of mine, but come on a do computer work like 6 hours a day or something at work. I guess i only have to worry about tonight, because tomorrow i am going to a concert. Then it is the weekend and stuff is always going on during the weekend. Anyways i was so bored last night after watching a movie with Dom and Vicki that i just sat there for awhile and then decided I was so bored that i would just go to sleep. Hmmm i guess now that i am not so busy i should start calling some people up again and go hiking and stuff after work. Any crazy readers out there with some ideas of things to do?

Today I added the source code to weblech a opensource java webcrawler. I edited it and added a bunch of feautres and someone asked me for the source so i decided even if I will be adding more to it it is fully functional so i will add the source for now and add more later.

http://programming.wastedbrains.com go to weblech on that page

Then My movie is done and up on the web so check it out. I have worked forever and now i have it on muy server and a bunch of mirrors so go download it now. Right click saves as please...

http://www.deadawakemovie.com

It is a movie about dreams and escaping reality.

You would think the fact that i am so tired it hurts to lift my legs. Or that i was really active today would make my body sleep. Instead it is like i have been drinking 300 lbs of coffea as i have laid in bed for the last hour and a half wishing for some sleep. What makes me twitch so? I have no clue it isn't some amazing thought that is keeping me up late at night. It isn't some interesting idea. Nope just me wishing i could sleep. How is it i know so many people that have to fight falling asleep during movies when me and my overactive brain can't sleep even when body and mind only wishes to be asleep. Crap.

Well i am going to claim a little bit of success for my movie now. This morning i was woken up (yes i did finally fall asleep at about 7ish). I was woken up by my phone, on the other end was my hosting company saying that i had gone through 80% of this months bandwidth in the last hour. I was like crap. They said at this rate i would start to recieve additional bandwidth charges in 20 mins. So i moved my butt out of bed and dropped all movie downloads on the primary server. This left me with 4 mirrors so of which were not that good. So i drove to work and uploaded the movie on 2 more CU servers and used those as mirrors. So today after getting posted on www.pocketpcthougths.com I reached about 100 downloads of my movie. That is some mad progress in my opinion. So whoopie to me for now. hehe this month i wont be able to link or advertise the movie anywhere else for fear of going over my bandwidth. Late this month i will begin preparing for next months bandwidth attack though. We will see what i can come up with to handle a larger load than I recieved on the servers today. It was fun to have my first website emergency though hehe.

Public service announcement: I just watched the movie head of state. This has got to be the biggest piece of crap ever written and made. It is horrible. Chris rock isn't even trying to act in so many parts of it because he must have realized how bad it was going to suck. The budget must have called for chris rock and video cameras. The acting and everything was just horrible. It might have been funny if i was like 13 and on pain killers after having evasive surgery. Oh well. Just dont waste your time this isn't even worth renting.

Well I guess i have a few announcements. First off I have to say that our cat now has kittens. Two of them. I have named them, dead mouse looking thing, and dead rat looking thing. I am sure there names will change as they cease to look like dead mice. Anyways they are cute small and they can't open their eyes yet. funny, but Dom better get the cat fixed before we have kittens every 4 months.

I know people want all of the movie bloopers i will edit them all together and post them soon maybe i will even do that today since i dont seem to have much to do. Sorry for everyone that is eagerly awaiting to see the famous nipple licking. I also a couple nights ago shot some new video of a friend wearing a pimp outfit riding a 4 year olds tricycle in the skateboard park by my house. It is hilarious. So hopefully i will have that all edited together soon as well.

My parents called to talk to me about my movie. In all they think it was interesting and very well done, but overly depressing. I really expected this from my mom, who was just waiting for him to meet the girl in real life. I thought my dad would perhaps see it as just a different way of life a little more but not so much. oh well. Anyways they both thought it was prett dark and depressing and were looking for it to turn around at the end. I thought i should comment on this. The film did turn out alot darker than expect but at the end he is happy and living the life he really wanted to and having amazing dreams... so does this to everyone seem like he is just laying in bed waiting to die as my parents saw it? People live lives in different ways this character just chose to live outside of the reality that we all live our lives in. Oh well so it was interesting to talk with them.

I have found at least 3 film festivals that i can submit my movie to since they accept digital film. I am now waiting to hear back from them if they will accept a version with commecial music in it or if i have to remake a version using none copyrighted music in it. So it should be exciting to see if it even gets accepted into any of the festivals.

Well I am off to vegas. I will be out for four days of fun, drinking, dancing, gambling, and generally being a guy with my good friends. I will be there with a total of 8 college guys so i fear how much trouble we will be able to get in. Luckily limited funds should keeps us from getting to ridiculous. I am going to play some black jack with my method and see if i can win some more cash. I will try to win about $100 a day with my method... hehe we will see how much I make or if i end up dropping my $200 this trip. We will be doing some dance clubs, strip clubs, and eating out. It should be the best possible way to end out the summer.

So wish me luck everyone. I will leave tiny updates from my pocket pc of money i win or loose while i am away.

Also most importantly, VEGAS BABY, VEGAAAASS!

I am sitting in the vegas airport right now. I will get home around 3 am tonight. Vegas was a blast we did everything. I did loose money for the first time though. I lost 300. It was worth it though what a way to end out the summer.

Yes that song feels more true after visiting vegas. In 4 days 3 nights time vegas has sucked the life out of me. I am so tired that sleep seems like to much work. The avg sleeping time each night was something around 4 hours. We did everything i would have wanted there and it was as much fun as ever imagined. It was truely an amazing experience that i will repeat again in about 2 years when i have the energy back. Seriously 4 days was to much time i think 3 days would be better. hehe maybe it would work to stay longer if I had more money to blow.

Highlights:

Josh has a black eye. Really don't know why. I think it was due to the slapping game turning into a dude punch me in the face for fun kind of situation. Either away i think it makes a good vegas story. I got beat up in vegas.

Jesse got so drunk that he fell down the stairs in New York new york. Jesse also fell down the stairs in there house about 2 days before the vegas trip.

While at dinner discussing me being a mostly veggie John said, "Vegitarinism I have only one thought about that. It's fucking stupid." I laughed and really craved KFC chicken... stupid morals ruin everything.

The restrooms of the excalibur will never be the same again.

I was so drunk one night that i couldn't get more money out of a ATM because i forgot my pin number. I also forgot that i have my pin number written down on part of my wallet. (This turned out to be a very good thing that saved me approx $80)

WHEEL OF FORTUNE! Possibly the greatest slot machine in existance. I live vicariously through Chris and made him play it every time we walked by it. (Due to the fact that i already lost my shirt trying to gamble.)

Each night out we would go to a different buffet. Each night approx 1 hour later we would have to take bathroom breaks for everyone to empty the buffet.

3 people drinking a 750 of vodka while walking the entire strip. Also add to that some margaritas we picked up on the way... Cost priceless.

Chris on his cell phone at least 3 out of every 5 mins.

Jessica surviving a trip that was 9 guys and her. This resulted in her being the butt of 90% of the jokes. Props to her for surviving and giving up alot of dignity.

After admitting to everyone that i recently misspelled my own name on my profiles web page. I also put my birthday in matt's planner during this trip on Nov. 30th (my b-day is dec 30th for those that didn't know).

Creating so many great vegas memories... but being to drunk to remember them. hehe not quite, but many pictures are on peoples cameras and while being viewed were followed by, "When were we there and what is that?"

Being so sleep deprived by the time we get to the airport that everything and i mean everything was funny.

Jesse, Matt, and the ft collins crew being banned from every mcdonalds in america... Or at least running out of the one they were in after exploding ketchup packets and throwing a hamburger at the wall.

Honestly the whole world has seemed so slow in comparison. I have started to recognize details in life again. Things you just don't have time to notice in vegas. Such as a leaf blowing across the street. The sound of the wind passing your each. The feeling of having a serious or worthwhile thought. It was great to get away, but it might be even better that it makes me even happier to be home. There is still so much to do and see in the world. I guess i am now one step closer to doing it all.

Well mars is the closest it has ever been in a long time. I had the chance to get a really good look at it through my friends 14 inch telescope. That is a really big and nice telescope for just a hobbist. So it was really cool and interesting. I enjoyed seeing mars as well as some other cool things in our skies. I could make out some shawdows and such on the planet. You could definately see the ice caps. Over all it was a fun and nice little experience. Also it is always just a good time to chill with champ. I have been craving intelectual stimulation lately seeing as i all but destroyed thought process in vegas. So a night of star gazing fit in well. Also i have been working with a bunch of new java stuff for fun. I have been working with learning chatbots. They learn new things and get better at conversation with use. It is pretty cool to mess with so far.

Well CU was named the number one party school this year. A return after we had dropped in recent years. I think this is funny. A party school is all about who you know and what party circuit your in. I mean i am sure the frats have parties all the time. I have nothing to do with them. Other friends of mine frat parties are the only parties that exist. Anyways every campus i have been to we have been able to find parties. You just have to have a couple friends that all give each other a call when they hear about something going on.

I dont really mind the party school ranking even though i don't think it means much. I do dislike that we are the school with the least studying. That i think definately reflecks badly on the school. I know certain majors are supposed to be a joke here (business comes quickly to mind. I mean they dont even have that school open on fridays. The classes are a joke. Everyone in our business shcool parties 5 times a week.) You have to look at our other colleges though friends in the arch school spend up to 40 hours a week in studio sometimes to finish projects. Our engineering school is still highly respected and these people work. I can't say i study that hard but that is because i don't care about school and i can get by. Even i study more than that hour a night the article suggests. Oh well there is nothing to be done about the reviews.

On a final note i guess to keep the party school tradition alive we are having a party this friday. It should be fun and it will be a nice way to welcome back the school year. I hope we don't get busted since CU is trying to crack down especially after the party school ranking. If we do that will be the end of large parties here i am sure. If your in boulder friday give me a call and i will tell you what is going on.

Just to announce we won our foosball game. I was going to root for CSU, but none of them came to our party last night. So they deserve to loose. That's what you get for not coming to party. Rock out CU!

I have sent my movie off to its first film festival it should be exciting to see if I get accepted into the festival. Also, I am begining to prepare for this months big hit on the dead awake site. Last month i linked it off Pocket Pc Thoughts and I ended up having about 100 downloads in one day. I was really happy with that, but i also learned that i don't have near enough servers to handle that kind of traffic. So This month i will probably be buying some bandwidth on a couple big servers and getting as many mirrors as I can. It should be exciting to see how many downloads i get after i try to get it linked on Fark.

School has had it's first week come to an end. My classes look like they are going to be a little easier than i had originally planned which is cool. I hope that means i can have some fun with a social life and work on my various hobbies. I am excited and worried by this year as a whole. It scares me to realize this is my senior year and i feel as if I should know more and be further in my life than i currently am. I dont really know what i mean by that but it has been something that has worried me alot over the last couple weeks. I should have more memories and completed more of the tiny dreams in my head than i seem to. I have had fun but have a really been having as much fun as i am supposed to? I dont know.

Our party on friday turned out to be a success. It was a blast even though it rained the entire time, plumbing went out in our house, then went out in our neighbors, and everyone had to pee in our back yard. Loosing all bathrooms seems like a party ender. No everyone just peed in the back yard and the party kept going strong for at least a hour and a half. The final group didn't take off till close to 5 I guess. So i am pretty happy with that. I went to sleep at 3:30 and people were still out back enjoying some beer. good for them.