Dan Mayer's Blog

Well the last couple days have been a fun ride on my movies site. First on monday I got about 200 hits most of which happend within a hour. Then basically nothing. I learned that i was linked from Zfilter.org which was cool. Then Tuesday was slow got about 30 people. Then wendsday morning check the site about 200 hits check a little later another hundred more. it seems to have died out since then. I dont know who linked us i can't find it. I do think that it is pretty cool to have over 500 visitors in the last couple days. I think i have 14 more days on my primary download server so until then keep the hits coming after that... hehe I guess i will be very afraid if i get that many hits in a day. hehe

Besides that i have been keeping pretty busy with school and such lately. I am looking forward to fall break which starts today, but i am not looking forward to monday. Monday begins a hell week of school with 2 tests and a paper. So that wil not be so fun. Plans for break camping, black hawk, and Ft C.

My mind has been running wild creatively lately and i have been doing alot of art. Hopefully something pretty cool will come from it.

We went camping last night and about everything that could go wrong did. The thing is we still kicked it's butt. We made it to the top of the Contentail Divide. We started hiking up in the rain. It rained the whole 2 1/2 hour hike up. By the time we got to our camp site we were all dead tired and it was snowing. We set up a tarp and dug around for anything dry. We got a fire started (Champ did) and kept it burning while cooking dinner and chilling. Using the fire we dried all of our stuff and set up camp. We then slept on frozen grown while it snowed and rained all night long.

Waking up to freezing temps and still small amounts of snow we packed up. There was nothing dry we couldn't get another fire growing. So we hiked up to the top of the divide. We then enjoyed the triumph of being there the wind blowing against our bodies. We hike back down and hike back to the car. We then drive home a hard earned and well accomplished fight against nature. We think it is over.

Our fight wasn't over. Later that night Dom finds a spider crawling on his wall. It was a black widow that we brought back from camping. It must have been in one of our backs the entire trip back. That is some serious stuff. So after we hit every kind of weather you could and slept through snow and rain, throw a black widow at us and we still say victory over nature for the day.

Probably not as intense as i might have made it sound but it was a sweet time and it really let me push myself. I was tired and felt like trash the rest of the night and didnt go out but it was worth it.

Well I didn't do to much over fall break besides camping. I had a cold went camping and then had a pretty bad cold. So i didnt really go out anywhere or anything. It was nice to have that much time to chill though. I also finished up some homework that i had been neglecting. I am about to have a hell week at school and I am not looking forward to it. I am looking forward to having a party next saturday. So hopefully that will turn out well.

Last night we played a bunch of poker (taught Amy how to play). We also made crazy drinks and had those. We did some flamming shots and had some strawberry beer. We had Amy drink a entire bottle of champagne. It was a entertaining evening. It wasn't anything big but i had a good time.

The freaking out about spiders continues. I am not waking up as much, but still kinda jumpy. It also helps that i found 2 other spiders in my room and they ran away before i could kill them. It was obvious they weren't Black widows, but still spiders are bad and should leave me alone. Maybe they were brown recluse as someone so helpfully suggested to keep my imagination running.

Girls are wierd. Recently i have heard some stories about girls. It just makes me wonder what they are trying to do. What they really want. They all claim to want something nice and logic, yet do about everything to make that not a possibility. I think my solution will be to become so in touch with my femine side that I will understand the self destructive behavior. Once i have reached that state i will find a way to use it to my advantage.

I need to be aware an study alot yesterday so I had a redbull. I study a bunch had a good understanding and just hung out. I helped Dom with homework and Scott with some video. At some point I looked at a clock and it was past 2 am how did that happen? Stupid redbull kept me going so i never got tired.

Also since I am dumb I set my alarm for 8 am when I have no reason to wake before 8:40 am. Apparently I enjoy having a lack of sleep. I was so mad to wake up cause I had the hottest wife in my dream.

I just destroyed a test. I was kicking it's butt. So I am really happy. The problem is that everyone seems busy tonight. That is no fun. I went in chilled with the neighbors more so that was fun. They are all nice and fun to chat with. I had a good time at least.

Anyways we are getting set to have a party Saturday, so I am excited about that. I also am in need of finding some new girls to date so my plan is to do that saturday at the party. We will see how that goes, worst comes to worst I could just get really drunk and make out with a tree.

Now that i am done with the really imeadiate work and the worries are gone for awhile i can get back to more fun things like painting and working on other stuff. I think i should work on recruiting women to let me do nude photography or charcoal drawings of them. This would be a highly entertaining activity.

Also now that the hard work is done and i have time i have to try to return to looking good. Meaning Regular shaving, having Dom dress me, getting a hair cut, shaving neck, and having someone shave my back. Yes i know it is gross but isn't it grosser if i never have anyone shave my back? Speaking of which i am still mad about the whole body hair issue. Maybe i should just show my chest hair off and hit on older women that still think Sean Connery is hot.

Anyways tonight is a good night and I shall dance.

I thought this was funny and it showed my college so i guess i have some school pride...

Worth a LOOK! Funny.

East vs. West Education

Also same kinda thinking
Batman as a girl and sexy?

Tonight i am headed to Denver to watch Killbill and hand with some friends. It should be a fun and exciting adventure. I am not sure how excited about kill bill aas a movie that i am but it should be worth seeing at the very least. At the best it could possibly be brillant. I just think the idea of a wife coming back to life to kill people that killed her husband (or something like that) sounds a little dumb.

We had a party on saturday night. It was a good time and went off with out a hitch. We had a keg and jello shots as normal. We didn't get busted by the cops. We had a pretty big showing. We have definately had larger groups at some of parties, but having things a little smaller is a good thing since that means we won't be busted by the police. We have no pictures because both Dom's and my digital cameras have broken recently.

We had a uniform party, I think we did pretty well at getting a majority of the people at the party to dress up. We had girls in school girl, nurses, and MGD girl outfits. We had all sorts of guys in outfits. I drank a whole hell of a lot and lost track of time/people/ and whatnot. I know that everyone had left by about 3 in the morning and that i was better by then and had drank alot of water. Scott however had not been drinking water and was probably drunker than i was cause he work up with one hell of a hangover. Even with out a hang over i still accomplished nothing the next day. I can never do anything the day after we have a party. I just become lazy and sit around all day. Oh well extra homework for me tonight. Sweet.

It is always great when you have something that makes you look at the past and realize how much fun stuff was there. A friend needed a bunch of funny highschool stories for a movie he is writting so in the last couple days all my old friends have been writting about all the really funny stories from our past. I think it is great. Old memories of lighting my carpet on fire, first time drinking, and other funny moments in our history. It is amusing as hell i haven't been able to stop laughing since i read all of them.

Well i got a date for this weekend. So i am excited about that. Hopefully this one wont follow that others into the just dissappearing never to be mentioned again situation. We will see since it is only tuesday i get almost the whole week to freak out and get nervous. I want to try to come up with something fun to do but that is much harder said than done. What is really cool and fun that you can do that will make you stand out on a first date. Something you can do without knowning that person very well. When you know someone well you can do wierder or more interesting things. Because it would be ok to go hiking and have a picknick in the mountains if you knew she liked to hike. All i ever come up with is dinner and a movie. I think bowling would be fun for dates, but that isn't something you can do until your chill with the person and they aren't like bowling is for losers. It is just something fun to do while chatting hence a good thing, but not until it is obvious your both really into each other i guess.

I think it is funny all the ways that people are different. I mean Dom gets really excited and happy when he has dates and he becomes quickly obsessed with them. I mostly just start to freak out and think what i will have to do to make a date work out. I never am just like i hope we match well. I am always wondering what I should be doing. I think that is dumb. I wish i could just chill out and not flip out every time i get a date. But i do. So that is just a part of me i guess. Some one left a message saying that i probably freak out and get more nervous than i need to and mentioned that girls get nervous as well. I don't doubt that at all. It just doesn't help.

I guess we are supposed to have a pretty big guys night out on thursday which should be fun. A friend wanted to go to some strip clubs another friend has never been to strip clubs and I know another friend that always wants to go to them. So i guess we are going to strip clubs on thursday. Which is going to be a little wierd, cause i would rather go to strip clubs with a group of girls and guys than just a group of guys, but whatever. It is always fun to chat with a stripper for a little while and realize how different other peoples lives can be. I sit infront of a screen and type and get frustrated and will do this for my living as well. A stripper does something that they probably wish they didnt have to do for money and just hopes the guys dont mess with them to much. So being a geek to sex sells the world is ready for the exchange of money.

Tonight i saw howie day (sp?). It was amazing in every way possible. 2 years ago Matt raved so much about this man that i download a few songs. They were good but i never really grasped how impressive. I am sure if others downloaded his songs or bought his CD's they would like them, but you can never truely apprieciate or understand this man and his music until you see him live. It will blow anyone's mind long as they like music. It is really amazing. It was probably one of the best concerts i have gone to in a long time. I am very glad i wasn't busy tonight and I am very glad Matt came all the way from ft fun and invited me to come alond to see this amazing show. He is playing at the gothic in denver tomorrow if your not busy. It adds to all of the levels in which i appreciate music. I dont know how to write a better review than this...

while I am making music recommendations i figure i should toss a few more out there.

Some stuff people may not have heard of:
Punkish: Yellow Card, this is a really good new punk band to the scene. They really have amazing energy and a different style. A friend Dom^2 got me hooked on them. What can be better than punk with an electric fiddle.

Rock Funkish: Jump little children. This was one of the opening acts for Howie Day and they were really impressive. First to notice they have an accordion, cello, eukelaly, and a big old bass. Very cool.

Oldy but a goodie: I am getting back into g-love and special sauce a bit. they are always good for chill.

That is all i can come up with for now. What about you people? Anything a little les heard of that your getting into currently?

after being down for a bit everything seems to be smoothed out with the server and domain name.

Thursday night was guys night, we went out to take Scott out to a strip club for the first time. It was a hilarious evening. A freind of ours gave his number to a stripper and is hoping to get a date. It is always wierd, but funny, and fun when i end up in a strip club.

Friday night i went out on a date. This is a girl i wanted to ask out 3 semiesters ago. She was in a class of mine and she caught my eye. She is really smart and cute. I tried talking to her a couple times in that class and never could. Then she ended up in another class with me the semiester after that. I talked to her some and still could never get up the nerve to ask her out. This semiester we had another class together and I finally asked her to come to a house party we were having. She didn't show up but talked to me class and said she was sick and couldn't come. I then got all scared and stopped talking to her again. Then she called up for homework help in one of our classes. I helped her out and finally asked her out on a date. She said yes and we went out last night. It is probably the best first date i have ever gone on. We are supposed to go out again sometime soon and I am way to excited, she is beautiful and smart. Like i have always said there is nothing more attractive than a beautiful and intellegent woman.

Today i woke feeling pretty good and got ready as normal for school. In class i promptly started a downfall into a tired zombie. Barely able to hold my head up through the class period. Now i am at work and dream only of sleeping under my desk as i am far to tired to accomplish anything. Lets hope that after I eat some food I wake up a little more. I did accomplish alot last friday but i was hoping to continue my forward progress.

I did some art and watched a ton of movies over the weekend. Also i stayed up till after 5 with dom on saturday and was feeling a little hung over the following day, but it was worth it and it was a great celebration. There was much to celebrate. Also we had a large number of suprise visitors coming and going through out the evening which always keeps it entertaining.

Today i was tired so i came home and took a nap. I lied down with purpose and feel into a deep and bizarre sleep. I feel into such a deep hard sleep that didn't last all that long. Which made everything even more confusing. I was asleep but feeling my legs moving, but i wasn't sure if they were or i was dreaming. I coudln't wake up and check. My whole body became water moving like waves and i heard sounds and voices and my body felt as if i was passing out repeatedly. I then thought i heard my friends Dom^2 and Lisa come in. Which was probably because right before i went to sleep i was thinking about how they show up every monday and i am trying to, planning to, or i am taking a nap. (which is because i wear myself out on the weekends i am always tired on monday.) Either way i dont think my friends ever were here. So the dream state the dream world and the unconciouses are truely fascinating to me.

Almost as fascinated as i seem to be with this new girl... I keep getting afraid though... If i like her to much i could set myself up for failure. If she knows how much i think about her, I could creep her out. This that and blah blah blah... Couldn't it just be like we have been friends for ever share stories, laugh and have good times, hold each other and stare deep into one another eyes without that awkward feeling. I know we share many interests, but many of them aren't the kind of thing that should be discussed on a date. Such as her interest in Artifical intellegence. hehe

Wow it was a crappy day today. I first learned that my numb comp test would be on tuesday the same day a large homework assignment is due. Then I asked out the girl i am into and she had a test tomorrow so she needed to study tonight (not a bad like no, but still doesnt make me less nervous.) Then a little bit of senior projects turned into 4 hours with little progress at all. Then homework has taken forever. Also i learned that basically i will be really busy for the next two weeks or so. Happy halloween your life is going to suck.

Numb comp owns me this weekend.

To cheer myself up i think i will fall into a hole and get trapped. Oh yeah also while doing the homework i did 5 of the wrong problems wasting an hour of my time.

I was bored and needed to chill so i did a photoshop contest. This was the image i made cool looking eh?

Well last night was odd. First i couldn't fall asleep for ever. Then about 3 i wake to go to the bathroom. Where scott is standing in the middle of the hallaway and makes some wierd sound. I go to the bathroom and return to my room. I turn on my light to search my bed for spiders which i do before returning to my bed, espcially since the black widow incident. Finally my OCD payed off. I saw a spider in my bed. Not even that it was on my pillow. Just waiting to crawl on my face and eat me. No it wasn't a poisonis spider but still they suck. Of course the only problem then was the rest of the night i was freaked out that more spiders would be returning to avenger there spider friends death. This cause me to jump kick and squirm for the next couple hours instead of getting good sleep.

Well this is an exciting weekend. I have two dates with the girl i am really into right now. We are going out to do something fun tonight and we are going to study for a test we both have on tuesday later in the weekend. It should be fun. Also for the first time almost ever i am actually excited about going out more than i am just nervous. I think tonight we might go listen to some live music for awhile. I am not quite sure i am still working things out.

Last night was guys night, we didn't do anything all that special or interesting, but it was still a good time. We chatted a bunch with one of our neighbors which was fun. Also we set up to do a neighbor dinner session with them all sometime soon. Those evening are always a good time.

Amy has been sick and staying here so i am pretty sure Dom and I will get sick. Might have already, my stomach has bothered me a bit the last two days, but it could just be from the drinking the last two nights.

It is great having a girl that really wants you to end up in a relationship. Amy (Scott's Girlfriend) has been helping me come up with second date ideas. She even took it further, after we had an idea she went to work and talked to a bunch of other girls and took a consensus on how the ideas rated with them for a second date. They also came up with 4 or 5 back up choices for things we could do. So now not only do i know that most girls like the second date idea i have even more ideas for dates.

if your interested here they are in the order the girls rated them:
Live Jazz and a snack
Haunted house
Boondocks (putt-putt, go karts, and other such things)
Some small concert

I love the fact that i now have market research for my date. All i need now is a group of 6 girls to follow me around on my date and send me SMS's on my phone of what i need to do next. example:

walking and talking
SMS: "Hold her hand now."
dry nervous sweat on jeans reach for hand
holding hand
walking talking and touching

Amy you rule! Not just for brownies either. hehe

Well i was sorta stood up last night. I couldn't get ahold of the girl until pretty late, and she said she would call back soon. She called back about an hour later, and said she was tired and would rather just get together tomorrow. So nothing happened last night but we are going to lunch and doing homework together at 1. So we will see how that goes. She said se was up late the night before and really tired so no reason to count anything out yet. Especially since she still wanted to get together today. So yeah lunch and yeaa studying for a test. I hate school, but i like girl so maybe studying will be cool.

Well i did it again, I dont know how i could possibly suck so bad at dating. Alright today the girl who shall remain nameless and myself went out for lunch. then after a nice enjoyable lunch we came back to my place for study. We didn't get much homework done. maybe a hour and 1/2. She was at my house for like 5 hours. We talked a bunch it was a blast it couldn't have went better except. Did i ever try to kiss her, or anything. NO. she is laying on my bed next to me and i couldn't even try to kiss her. DAMN IT! So i take her home and drop her off end of a perfect date, do i try to kiss her then NO. Do i even walk her to the door no, because in my head i was so busy thinking about how i should try to kiss her once before she gets out of the car. It was an awkward and anti climatic ending to the date. So i am pretty sure from now on i will be marked down as just friends. This girl is so amazing, so many similiar interests even the field of study i am interested in (AI). She even plays starcraft for crying out loud. Well i will give her a call again and if i even get the chance to have another date. I will think of something i will try something and I will push that bound from being just friends... but it may be to late.

I talked with my friend steve last night. I am really happy he is so excited about what he is going into. Last week he went flying in a F-16 for about a hour and a half. He actually got to take the controls and fly the plane himself for about 10 minutes. How cool is that. So my friend Steve is now a fighter pilot, who has actually flown an F-16. Very cool.

Yesterday was a very big day overall. I mean i had an amazing time with the girl and she has been effecting my thinking ever since. Then the night brought some interesting evens and od revolations. I questioned what was going on and what we were doing as a group. It just seemed so wastefull and worthless. Perhaps it was just due to some of the conversations I had with the girl, or the fact that i have become more and more worried about what i am going to do with my life. After college i just dont know what i want now. Also the whole situation made me feel very old. Like i was to old to still be doing all this shit. That i should jst grow up and move on. i dont want to ever really grow up, but at a certian point if everyone is growing up around you, you either have to start living like them, or not hanging around them. Anyways I have a million thoughts going through my head. Wondering what i should be doing, what direction i should be heading, and what portion of my life i should really be focusing on. Also i have the always silenced thoughts of Laura since her 21st birthday is coming up in a couple days. Hopefully a couple things will sort themselves out in the next couple days.

Perhaps i am freaking out a little less today, or it is just that school is keeping me busy and monday knocks me back into the swing of things pretty quickly. I have quite a bit of work todo tonight and a test tomorrow so they are occupying a large portion of my thoughts. I have some more cool ideas for projects which is always fun, but i have no time to do them which sucks. Also my projects don't seem to be relaxing to me anymore, just another thing i have to get finished, which is kinda taking the fun out of some of them.

Last night we had our first broomball game. We lost, but it is so fun, and about the only time i technically exercise. Many of my muscles are sore today, but whatever that is all part of the fun. Nothing beats trying to run around on ice with traction.

Well I talked to the girl again. Wished her luck on the test and chatted for a bit. We are going to get together to hang out tomorrow night. I dont exactly know what we have planned but i am supposed to call her when i get back around 6:30. I am excited and i am sure this will make it harder to study, but I don't really care, because this could possibly be more important. Anyways yeeaaaaa nervous ass me gets another chance to be nervous.

Well I finished my test today, which feels great. I think i did pretty good on it. Especially considering i had planned on study alot more for it. Oh well i have tons of other stuff on my mind right now. Sorry my site has been kinda boring for awhile, I have been busy with other things, and we aren't getting a whole lot of feedback for wastedbrains right now anyways. Soon Dom and I will be posting a new song and we already have plans for another one in the works. Perhaps it is time i get some good synth software and learn how to make cool drum beats and stuff. Anyways if the singing turns out ok this will be our best song to date (not saying much). It is a really fun activity for just 2 people hanging out and having a drink or two, make some music, write some music, pretend your in a cool band. I enjoy it anyway.

Well it is almost halloween and I haven't done crap about my costume, again. Soon i should probably take care of it in the next couple days. I am not even sure what i am doing on halloween yet. There are 3 parties that i know of, I am sure i will end up at one of them. It sounds like Scott and Dom are going to be going to different parties which sucks, cause it would be cool if we could all hang out somewhere. Anyways, Dom is mad at me for posting some of my thoughts on his blog so maybe he just wants to get away for awhile.

I have recieved numerous threats that if i dont try to kiss this girl tonight, I will be injuried in one form or another. Hopefully this will help motivate me. The thing is i hate not knowing, I dont ever want to do something with a girl that she didn't want. I never want anyone to have regrets about things we do. Perhaps this is why i am always so slow to make the first move. Whatever, I better do something or i will end up just having another friend.

I arrived a little early (5 min) so now im sitting in the car listening to music while she gets ready. This gives me plenty of time to get even more nervous.... ah must calm down.

Alright you hopefully have read my last post about the 5 mins in the car... after about 13 mins i called dom and was like what the hell should i do. He was like try calling back and see if this is not a good night. That sounded good so at 15 mins of waiting i called. The cell phone which she was on goes straight to voice mail. The regular line has a busy. A busy she is the only one home. So i wait and call the main line a couple minutes later still busy. So i am like fine screw this. I call the voice mail back so i can leave a message, "Ummm i have been waiting a while, I tried calling both lines and can't get through so i will just assume there is something serious going on. I am going to take off, you can give me a call tomorrow or later tonight. Hope everything is alright talk to you later." Right as i hang up and start the car. She walks up and opens the front door, but she is on the phone. I walk up and I am like is this not a good night for you?, she says maybe we should do this another night, she is in a pretty intense conversation and doesnt think it would be a good idea to just cut it off right now. I say i understand and ask if everything is alright, she says yes and that she is really sorry i waited all that time and that she would make it up to me by taking me out for ice cream or something.

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? I can't read women at all. So should i just assume i am screwed over and move on. She offers to take me out again, is she into me? I would have tried to give her a little peck and say something like just to make the drive worth it. But i think it might have been the Ex-boyfriend on the phone from the way she was talking.

Dom and I have said it before and we will again, "Do i have SCREW ME OVER tatooed on my forhead?"

Seriously if i go through this crap for the rest of college I am done, I will just give up on finding a relationship and just focus entirely on starting my own company.

I seriously am flipping out... This isn't the only super fun special thing going on with girls right now, I just got a responce today to my birthday gift to Laura, which pretty much confirms my own beliefs anyway, but it is always hard to let the sliver of hope go.

Well the ending for the night is that she called me a little later. She explained that an old friend called long distance. One of those calls you get when thye just really need someone to talk to. So she had to take it and originally thought it might be fairly quick. Anyways she apologized alot and wants to do something agian soon. If i finish up all of my stuff tomorrow night we might even hang out then. So I guess everything is all right. It still sent me for a pretty good loop. I mean, like i have said many times recently i have alot running through my head. This just helped pile even more on top of it. So i guess i will take this as a good news ending.

Problem is school is going nuts for awhile, and just today one of my bosses was telling me how i should apply to companies even though i am not planning to graduate until december. He thinks i would have more oppertunities if i started the process now. How could i do that now when i don't have any clue what i want to be doing over a year from now.

well for me it was just another kiss, i just want to be friends. That is the basic jist of it. It seems the rest would probably just be boring and not be worth typing.

to clear up some confusion. She just wants to be friends, she just got out of a long term relationship. She isn't looking for anything serious. That is the basic idea. Anyways, back to starting point.