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Yesterday....

Yesterday was a very big day overall. I mean i had an amazing time with the girl and she has been effecting my thinking ever since. Then the night brought some interesting evens and od revolations. I questioned what was going on and what we were doing as a group. It just seemed so wastefull and worthless. Perhaps it was just due to some of the conversations I had with the girl, or the fact that i have become more and more worried about what i am going to do with my life. After college i just dont know what i want now. Also the whole situation made me feel very old. Like i was to old to still be doing all this shit. That i should jst grow up and move on. i dont want to ever really grow up, but at a certian point if everyone is growing up around you, you either have to start living like them, or not hanging around them. Anyways I have a million thoughts going through my head. Wondering what i should be doing, what direction i should be heading, and what portion of my life i should really be focusing on. Also i have the always silenced thoughts of Laura since her 21st birthday is coming up in a couple days. Hopefully a couple things will sort themselves out in the next couple days.

Posted on October 26, 2003 7:01 PM | AddThis Social Bookmark Button

Comments (4)

Anonymous:

It's just part of growing older. It can't be avoided (Well, not while living. I'd like to think, however, that I've proven to you that you don't really have to grow up! Looking forward to seeing you soon.

P.S.

I don't think you've entered the freinds for ever zone yet. Relax!

Posted by Anonymous | October 26, 2003 8:18 PM

Posted on October 26, 2003 20:18

dave:

if you ask me, you should simply do what makes you happy. if you enjoy hanging out with other people, then do that regardless of how mature the things you do are. for me, personal relationships make me feel better than anything else in the world. i think it's important to have friends and people that care about you (regardless of their gender). good luck with the chick. go buffs!!

Posted by dave | October 26, 2003 10:56 PM

Posted on October 26, 2003 22:56

Dominic:

Dan,
You're one of the smartest guys I know and I know you'll refuse to let your life become anything less than what you've expected of yourself. You've always been the guy that says "I'm going to do this and have that" not, "I hope I can get there and get that." I also think we're in a time in our lives where everyone loses sight a little bit. Yeah, we have to "grow up" here really soon and no one really knows how to do it. We can try and follow the examples of our parents have given but actually going out into the world on our own is really fucking scary. I think we all share your feelings of doubt and fear.

Wanna write a song about it?

Posted by Dominic | October 27, 2003 8:51 AM

Posted on October 27, 2003 08:51

dan:

The first person that posted how can you have proven something to me when you dont even leave a name?

Posted by dan | October 27, 2003 9:22 AM

Posted on October 27, 2003 09:22

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