Well I guess it is good that school is coming to an end. The problem is that there are finals coming up. I have allot of work to do for various classes and job related work as well. Given the current family situation, I am having an impossible time focusing on the information that is important. I can work on job stuff, because it interests me and I like it, I can work on 3d stuff for the same reason for my graphics class. I can't however focus on statistics or my computer organization class. I tried and tried, tonight was the first day I could get myself to do any stats work, and I only got about an hour done. I haven't even gone to my comp org class since the incident. We have a homework assignment due in that class tomorrow, I haven't even read what the assignment is. I guess long as I pass and such it is no big deal, there are really more important things than grades, and family is one of them.
I have been doing fairly well considering, but Monday was a really low point, I don't really know specifically what made it a crappy day. Perhaps it was just that things are starting to kinda seem more real, and all the other problems in my life are beginning to become visible again. The things that never change still wont change, and the things that i always counted on being there are starting to change and fall apart.
I haven't officially said what the issue is on my blog, most of the people that read it know though. I guess just since i refer to it so often I will said it in its most general forms. My parents are separated and one is with another person and it looks like it is headed towards divorce.
messages to just some people, who may or may not know that something is written to them:
You have always been the best, and I know you will always be there for me in the future. Our friendship constantly amazes me.
You truly amuse me.
You have always been strong on the inside, I am proud of you and always have been.
I wouldn't never give up a moment between us, you have probably been the best thing that has happened so far in my life.
If i was walking through hell, you would probably be the one right by my side to help fight my way through it.
You have shown me, that if your a good person on the inside you can truly do anything. Never stop achieve it all.
Years ago, I would have never believed how much alike we are. I am glad we have become so close, and are so similar.
No one could really ever question your loyalty. Never loose your way.
You have shown me that no matter how different people are, they can become the best of friends.
For you it might have been able to be many people, but for me it couldn't have been anyone else.
You were first relationship even though we were never together, I might still be here just because of you.
You inspired me with the pain you always caused, and taught me to never give more of myself than someone deserves.
I am privileged to be friends, with possibly one of the kindest people ever to exist on the planet.
The creativity within your mind helped me to release more of my own potential.
Your amazing for the fact that you never give up. EVER!
You have taught and affected me more than you will ever know.
That's it, thanks for all of the people above and others who have helped shape my life.
Comments (5)
hmm, that kinda puts my honor code crap to shame. i'm sure things will become a bit more managable once school is out. i definately appreciate the fact that you're able to put what's really important, first. out of curiosity, does it feel better to finally put that out there on your blog. this sort of thing is a great outlet for life's little foibles that bring us down. your messages to people are obviously heartfelt, and i'll bet it feels good to know there are so many people that care about you and would do anything for you (myself included). just remember, things WILL work out for the best. go buffs!!
Posted by dave | April 28, 2004 1:10 PM
Posted on April 28, 2004 13:10
I am not sure if it feels better. I just felt like it should be out there. The blogs are a good place to bitch about little things in life, but on something more personal it seems kinda an impersonal way to be discuss which is why I have avoided it.
Yeah my friends have all been really good and helpful about emailing, calling, and talking.Thanks for your support as well.
Posted by Dan | April 28, 2004 2:35 PM
Posted on April 28, 2004 14:35
I would have said most of those things about you if anyone had asked me. I told you the other night how weird i thought our friendship was and how i really feel like we have been friends a lot longer than we have been.
Most of the best times in my life you were there for.
Posted by Kilburn HIgh Road | April 29, 2004 8:24 PM
Posted on April 29, 2004 20:24
I am glad you feel that way. I am confused by your name though. I hope we have many more fun times ^2 over the summer. I am sure we will. Good to get to know you.
Posted by dan | April 29, 2004 10:07 PM
Posted on April 29, 2004 22:07
it is an awesome song by flogging molly. one of my favorites by them
Posted by Dom^2 | April 30, 2004 10:37 PM
Posted on April 30, 2004 22:37