After a rough night of dreams I am not feeling al that great today. It is 10:50 in the morning and it has already been a ruff day. I feel entirely drained with nothing really here to recharge me. What at this point am I supposed to look towards for strength? Hopefully, I will still manage to be able to have a good afternoon. I feel as if everything has just past me by, half of it I even let go past. Now when I am working to keep a hope for myself, have to help keep hope for others. It is difficult when everyone tells you things will work out, you will find what your searching for... and you know it really isn't true and that everyone saying that really has found what their looking for.
It is impressive how much dreams can effect you. I mean i was fine last night and then my dreams were so real and so amazing, that waking up to reality was a dissappointment. A realization that your mind can create and want things that you will never find.
Sorry for the depressing post, but if you saw the world in my dreams last night that seemed so real you might understand.
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In my French class last semester, we read an except from Moliere's "Le Malade Imaginaire." One sentence that struck me from that piece was when Argan is speaking, and he says that waking up after dreaming is like dyine each time because the world of our dreams is so much better than reality will ever be. It was incredible to read something like that, so profound and so applicable.
As a person who has found what I was searching for, I am telling you that you will find it. It is possible - but only under three circumstances. First, that you are searching for the right thing. Second, that when you do find it, you will know it for what it is and appreciate it, instead of finding it and then throwing it away, declaring, "That wasn't it!" Third, that after you have found it and accepted it, you can live with it and for it. This is the hardest part, even harder than the search itself. But it is possible - do not lose hope.
In Peace,
s.l.f.r
Posted by Anonymous | May 21, 2004 11:55 AM
Posted on May 21, 2004 11:55
i hate to sound depressing, but i agree with you. i don't even know what i'm looking for. instead i settle for things that keep me from thinking about how meaningless my life is. don't feel as though you need to keep my hopes up, but try to understand that there are people out there who won't give you the contrived phrases about how "you'll find what you're looking for". maybe some people's lives aren't meant to have any meaning. at least your dreams are a refuge from life. go buffs!!
Posted by dave | May 22, 2004 1:46 PM
Posted on May 22, 2004 13:46
how depressing - the thought that some people's lives are not meant to have meaning. every life has meaning to it, every life is significant, each person has a purpose.
Posted by Anonymous | May 22, 2004 5:11 PM
Posted on May 22, 2004 17:11
that's why i said maybe. i desperately hope i'm wrong. go buffs!!
Posted by dave | May 23, 2004 1:14 PM
Posted on May 23, 2004 13:14
why would anyone be here if it was pointless?
Posted by Anonymous | May 24, 2004 8:02 PM
Posted on May 24, 2004 20:02
Why wouldn't they be?
Why anything?
Why nothing?
Posted by Dan | May 24, 2004 11:44 PM
Posted on May 24, 2004 23:44