Dan Mayer's Blog

today i got perhaps the funniest spam message ever. Proving that they must be having a hard time and a hard sell lately. Here is the message in its entirety:

BUY THIS STUFF!

this was of course hyperlinked to a web site selling whatever stuff it may be... Since i dont support spam i didnt click the link to find out. That is some funny "stuff" though.

Alright to much on the blog has been about stupid worrying and work stuff lately so lets change it up a bit. I am going to post about some of my favorite music that I have been listening to and why I like it.

The Future Freaks Me Out (by Motion City Soundtrack): This song i have been into since the summer. I think I like it so much because it talks about fear of the future and what could happen which i have definitely had in my life lately, but it is in a positive attitude. Like, yeah I'm scared, but I am having a good time, and it is going to work out great. "I'm on fire, and now I think I'm ready to bust a move. Check it out I'm rocking steady."

Cute without the E (by Taking back Sunday): This song is great it is just fast paced and full of energy I have been kicking it to this tune for almost a year now. Still love it. Also the music video is all fight club style and shows a group of friends acting out scenes and generally messing around, and it makes it look like anyone could just rock it out with some friends and become a rock star. Everyone always has a little bit of a dream of being a rock star, and This song makes me get pumped up and feel like I am a rock star.

Lose Yourself (By Eminem): This song has been doing well as my little motivational speaker. I need to keep on track get through the semester and stay focus on everything. This is my one shot to get the job i want the life i want. The song is all about taking that one shot and doing something with it. Making something of your self. Not failing when it comes to those crucial times where you really need to make something happen. "Loose yourself in the music, the moment, you want it, you better never let it go, you only get one shot.... to blow, opportunity comes once in a lifetime"

Let's Get Retarded (by Black Eyed Peas): This is possibly the least PC song ever, but that is fine with me, because i know it isn't meant to be hurtful to that community. Anyways, this is currently the ultimate party song. The ultimate cut loose, let loose, get out, have fun, fuck all the worry fuck it all... enjoy the night enjoy the life enjoy your friend enjoy your smiles and let the ever lasting party and fun continue. Not to mention the female lead singer is wicked HOT!

Clocks (by Coldplay): This song is just beautiful. When i hear it it makes me thing of the simple beauties of life. The amazing world of nature that surrounds us. The tend moments of love everyone has in their life, walking down the street holding hands with a young love, hugging your family, feeling the air breeze down the back of your throat as you breath mountain air during a hike. It makes me feel small in a good way, thinking that the world is just a bigger and great thing than can ever be completely comprehensible by a person. It shows the struggles of life and the ability to succeed. The pain that can occur in your life, while it is just another thing that makes the whole part of life go round and work. It shows the reason we continue to exist and that we do seek something and have the ability to add something with our lives. We can change the world, and this song shows you that you do have the power to become, "am I a part of the cure, or am I part of the disease. You ARE... You ARE..."

We used to be friends (by Dandy Warhols): This song reminds me of some good old days in high school. Some old friends I am not in touch with often that I miss dearly. It also reminds me of lost love which is sad, but when i think about it before I get sad I always get this amazingly warm happy feeling in my heart know and remember how I touched someone, and how the touch my heart and change me forever.

Mix Tape (by Brand New): This is a song is about the things I think everyone would like to say to someone they liked, were into, or an ex. All the good and the bad, what when wrong and pointing out some of their flaws. Everyone has flaws, but when your hurt I guess you just want them to know they aren't perfect either... something like that. Also, i think a lot of the lines in the song are appropriate for many girls in todays US population. "I've got a 20 dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you with out make up, your always made up."

Letters To God (by Box Car Racer): This song just kinda makes me feel at peace. Like a release of the built up stressed that I don't let out often enough. Also, I think about how it seems so much is moving on and past, when I am not there yet, or I am not ready. "I won't lie, I won't sin, maybe I don't want to go... can't you wait, maybe I don't want to go." I think it is hard at an age where have your friends are settling down and getting married and you have no clue what you want but you know your not ready, to be a parent and such yet.

Failure By Design (by Brand New): "This is a lesson in procrastination, I kill myself because I am so frustrated, and every single second that i put it off. Its another moment now that I have to race the clock... Another day late, and one year older. I am failure by design." I think many people understand the procrastination, you get caught up in one part of life and completely let everything fall behind in another then you have to catch up.

Jane Says (by Janes Adiction): I guess this one is because I always sit and ponder and wonder why girls go for the assholes, this song is kinda about a girl that is obviously in a bad situation, one she keeps telling herself she will get out of, that she will move on tomorrow. It seems many girls realize they keep dating the wrong kind of guys and keep going back to them... "I'm gonna start tomorrow. I am gone again tomorrow."

Otis (by Millencolin): Hard rock and ripping guitar (thats right I said it)... This one pumps me up also. It makes me feel like a rock star again, and you can just hear something in the singers voice like a passion to be understood. For someone to actually hear what he is saying beyond the words. "I love you more than as a friend."

My Favorite Accident (by Motion City Soundtrack): Sometimes when something little happens that is insignificant to one person it can really be a big positive change for another. I think the best example of this was that I hadn't liked a girl and found one that was intellectually stimulating as well for a long time and thought i might not ever find a combination like that again, when I dated this girl for a short while, and it showed me that I can really find someone like that and be really interested in them again. It was nice to know their was still women like that out there. She was never really into me and that ended, but it gave me hope, it made me think, yeah there is still someone out there for me.

Battlescars (by Ozma): Every person and any group of people that gets into a relationship brings their own baggage. This song reminds you to accept some flaws and love those flaws. You have them, others accept your. Also when your down and out that someone can really be their for you and support you, if you have been their supporting them. "Of all the shooting stars I known. I never felt at ease with any one but you...... Theirs battlescars on my face and my arms, but you still kiss me every day."

WonderWall (by Ryan Adams): This is just a great acoustic version of wonder wall. If you have ever dreamed of a heavenly angel of a girl coming to save you from yourself this song has something that will touch you. Also, the loving of someone that might not understand how much they mean to you, "I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now." So maybe that angel is out their for everyone, "Maybe your gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, your my wonder wall."

Tonight, Tonight (by Smashing Pumpkins): A fantasy filled dream... A symphony of mystery. This song brings out the creative child within me. Also, it is just inspiring and makes you want to "believe, believe, BELIEVE."

Mono (Great Expectations (from soundtrack don't know by who)): A amazing relaxing and soothing song. It is almost hypnotic. It captures a moment in your head beautifully. I don't always even know what I am thinking about while listening to it, but I am mesmerized.

Alright that is a nice little round up of my current favorite music to listen to. I know most of it is pretty well know but not all of it is. So maybe you will see something that sounds interesting to you. Post a few of your favorite songs and what they mean to you or what they make you think about. I am sure everyone has some song that they get into or puts them in a certain mood. Well since it is now late and I don't want to be pumped up i will be listening to a few of the slower songs i listed above to calm down into a sleepy like mood.

(not all lyrics may be 100% correct...)

I got an answer and it wasn't what i was looking for. So after well over a month of nothing. At least I have some idea of what is going on.

so I am not in the best mood.

So apparently... It cant be fun, but if things go weird it seems it all turns and not for a reason that makes any sense... except i know that somehow it was my fault.. cause well then it might make sense...

alright then... i guess this is progress... not really... anyways it should be an exciting and horrible and scary week...

well i am leaving town tomorrow on a rush... So i will talk to people later, by the time stuff settles down enough for me to even know what is going on I am going to be done with college.

Well... folks looks like I'll be in the denver area for awhile.... Maybe that means i will get to play broomball again.

peace,
Dan

Well I guess I will be done with college in about 3 hours. I have one last final in a little while. I am excited to be done, I think I learned a lot, but I think it is time for me to start applying my knowledge and start to actually do something with it. I have accepted a job, and will be learning some new things there, I assume I will be learning much more efficient coding practices, how to make a scaling website, how to deal with caching, security issues, more robust testing, and other things. I am hoping to learn some tricks to develop faster and other little tips. It should be pretty cool. Also, I will have more free time for my own projects so I can work on my site, work on some AI projects, and study up some necessary CS skills for some problems I am working on.

So what does this mean in the short term? Well besides tyeing up a few loose ends here and their, I am going to take about a month off and not worry about any of the issues, new job, and other craziness and just have a good time, see my fam for Xmas, and rock out the new year with a majority of the old crew in Breckenridge. Ahhh skiing, snow, hot chicks, and plenty of booze. Could it be better? Possibly, but am I worried no way, new years is the top of my list for good times.

So now I will take a final hour to cram for my final and then I will take my final, then I will be partying down with Matt and Jesse who are coming to boulder tonight.

Hell's yeah....

Wow.... After 3 months of being stressed out about jobs... Weeks of not knowing what I would do, where I would live, what I wanted... and then 4 nights of heavy partying to celebrate my new freedom... I have never sleep as well as I did last night.... Or not for a very very long time. If I could sleep like that all the time when I tried to sleep, it would be amazing. People that just sleep easy can't understand the feeling and pleasure that can be released in you just from getting a good nights sleep after having horrible sleep for months on end. It is delicious, which is my current favoright word.

Well i have been going non stop lately and have no free time. I am tired as all hell but having a blast. Today I played squash hockey which was a really good time. It was a nice 3 on 3 game with no serious injuries and only a little blood. I have been out to a bunch of amazing dinners and lunches the past few days. I got to party at old C's with a bunch of my good buddies. Anyways Thanks to everyone who came out or has spent some time with me in the last week it has truely been great.

I am about to head out to dinner again and then I dont know what is going on tonight, I just hope I get a chance for a good night of sleep and then I have to go to work tomorrow for a little while to get some paperwork filled out about my new position. I have about a million things I have to take care of tomorrow to get everything done that I have to before I leave town for xmas.

Hope everyone is having as much fun as I am and sorry that I have been to busy to spend time with everyone I want to right now.

Party on Wayne, party on Garth...

I really enjoyed the first novel I read by Dan Brown, that was Davici Code. So I decided to give him another shot. I grabbed a copy of Deception point. It was another really fast read that you just wanted to see what would happen next. The problem with this one was it didn’t seem to really make any sense the more you learned about the plot the more holes it had in it from the beginning. They had a huge scientific discovery and act like long as everyone believed it for the first week no scientists would ever return to the site and never verify anything. That is just not true. Then the main thing motivating you to read further is just descriptions of something amazing about to show up or be told to you and then chapters later it is still vaguely described and you don’t know what this important thing is. By the time you are finally told whatever it is your waiting to find out it is almost certainly a let down. Also, another very Dan Brown thing to do is have a series of coincidences each less probable than the last work out so that the story can continue. It is also really easy to predict the fate of most of the people in the book. First most characters are either perfectly good or perfectly bad. Then if any good character comes in and has some small task they help the “good team” with the will certainly die quickly after helping out. Also, it seems that it wouldn’t be a Dan Brown book with out a strong smart woman quickly falling for a man in about 24 hours because of his caring tenderness and brilliance. I guess at this point I just don’t feel there is a need to read any more of his books as you can come up with some extremely unlikely problem and then a never ending series of improbably happenings and then the two good guys fall in love at the end of the story. I felt I had to finish the book but by about halfway through I just couldn’t wait for it to end.

To sum it up I would say Dan Brown is a master at making you wait, and wait you will if you read his book just to see what happens even when you stop caring.

I am enjoying some much needed just chilling out by myself and relaxing time at home. It has been pretty nice. There are some things that are just weird about being home and some memories it brings back that I would rather not think about, but there is also some very comforting things.

It is weird that I have a big todo list to take care of before I leave town. Oh well progress towards something right.

Merry Christmas everyone. Happy holidays and all that jazz. I am making a 3d puzzle and it is frustrating and cool at the same time. Hope all of the Colorado folk are having a good time with everything they are doing.

Well being home is winding down. I will be taking off back to colorado tomorrow. It has been good to see everyone but I am ready to get back to my own state. Anyways if your in colorado I will see you soon and if you can keep the night of the 2nd open.