Dan Mayer's Blog

Dan, I always knew it would hit you sooner or later. I'm very happy for you. One of these days we're going to have a talk and I'm going to make you eat some of your own words.

I can guess at some of your attacks, and I can predict so of my defenses, but you might want to wait, because it may just all begin again, in september.

I have been pondering this while cleaning... Nicole would be so proud i scrubbed out my whole bath tub with bleach...

So anyways hours later, your probably right, and there are probably many things you could make me eat my words on. I have said things, which while down and out seem so real, but aren't true. I have also said many bad things about myself when my self esteem was to low, for me to defend myself. So those are things that I would probably just have to say, yep your right. Anyways, it is still amazing to just look and see my thoughts over the last year and a half or so. Moving from the college classes, to a short break, work, from boulder to Denver. All the things that have changed, and how fast paced things have actually been moving in my life in the last little over a year. I definitely think we could have some interesting conversations.

I was listening to a song I like a few days ago, and realized it was my anthem for the time I took off between college and starting work. I thought about where I was during that time, things that were going on in my life. I thought about visiting my grandfather during that time. I remember specifically waiting in the airport for over an hour and listening to that song (Modest Mouse - Float On), and watching people go by, wondering about their lives. Wondering if they were happy, if they knew what they wanted, if they were headed in that direction. I guess right now even with things changing around out of my control and fast as hell, I still feel like I am headed in the right direction.

Kind of like fight club, Raymond if your not on the way to becoming a veterinarian in 6 months, we will come and kill you. Well it might be a little more than 6 months, but I am on my way.

Sadly one has to balance their professional life, with their personal life. In all realities the personal life is more important, but it is much scarier to make big life changes over your personal life. It is easy to say I am moving to California for a job, but hard to say I am headed that way to see about a girl. Perhaps that is where I have it all wrong, and most other people do to, perhaps that should be an easy decision, worked out well for Nicole.

Anyways there is always a lot on my mind, but currently they are all just good things. Good things and excitement about the future is filling my head, and that is pretty incredible.