Well where am I, in my little trip of life? Could I possibly know how far I have come or gone? I don't really know I feel like I am exactly where I need to be, but at the same time I don't ever remember dreaming of this part of my life as a kid. Being perfectly happy, amazingly happy, but completely unsure of which way to direct my life (in my dreams their is only one path).
Should I really be pursuing the things I do? Follow love at all costs? Should I work harder, make more, or do this and do that? Is this the feverish early 20's where I have my last big chance to really focus and make a discovery and change the world and it's thinking on a topic, because hardly any of the great discoveries and ideas come out of people over 30? Why focus on that if I will miss the chance to start a family? Is starting a family as good or better than a world changing idea in your field? Is spreading love and happiness to and through the people more important than just spreading it through your family? Are those the same things. I don't know, I feel like I am completely on track, headed the right way, but still as lost as ever on this trip through life.
I used to really believe the older adults, the parents, the teachers, the married couples, and such had this all figured out, but they don't. As I have become older, as I have had more real conversations with these people. I realize they are very good at many things and can always teach you, but they are never more sure of their life or the choices they have made in the past, than I am as I make my choices today and tomorrow. So here is a day and night that I think I made only the right choices, and I lay my head down happily to the pillow to sleep and dream of all the perfect possibilities of my future. I am scared and excited... So what do you think are we as a world headed the right way?
Well there is a quick 30 second brain dump of the things I think about now a days when left to my own devices... I stare off thinking about this and the world to a beat in my head, one that I would surely attempt to rap to if I had a drink or two... hehe
Comments (1)
I don't know if the world is headed the right way... and i don't know if you are either (or me for that fact). BUT, i do know that it could be a lot worse than having a bunch of great opportunities at your door. so i'd say follow your heart, it's cheasy, but i think that's the best way to be able to look back and be at peace. you know that at every turn you did what you felt was best - that way if it all turns to crapy you know you followed your dreams.
more concrete advice is to worry about family a little later. don't throw away a good thing, but your life is only going to get more complicated and more tied to family the longer you live. and that's not a bad thing, but you're less free to follow your dreams when you have a mortage, 2 car payments and 3 kids.
that said, i'm just one of those people who doesn't know what they're doing or where they're going... we'll have to get some wu-tang and talk it over
Posted by scott | October 24, 2006 10:18 AM
Posted on October 24, 2006 10:18